Future

      I have many dreams for the future. I just wish the future was right now. Why do we have to work for all of our youth, then get to retire when we are old and decrepit and can't do much? I just have this itch to be outside, go explore and just be free...with no cares in the world and just live each day like it could be my last. I want to do more with my life than I am currently doing. I dream of making a difference in the world of finding the beauty in things again. But those dreams always seem so far away or so unachievable or unattainable, like I'm running out of time. That just makes me want it more, that's what pushes me to keep putting one foot in front of the other. Maybe someday soon I can leave this small town BS and Just hit the road, do some traveling, go see the world, take a gazillion photos, all with my co-pilots right along side me. Just thinking about it gives me piece. There's just so much beauty and so many things that I want to see and experience in this life that I want to just focus on that until it becomes my reality. 

    I know that I am a driven person, that I can achieve great things, but my anxiety and depression wears on me a lot. I get self doubts that wont go away, no matter how hard I shove them down. They always seem to fester up and always bigger than the last time. but the difference is that now I try to shut the negative thoughts down by challenging them. Asking them, but what if I succeed instead of failing? And by not trying that is failure by default, so either way its just better to take the leap as long as the end results will be worth it.

    Just a few thoughts this morning that I had and wanted to share. I hope everyone is having a great Thursday.

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