A Healing Journey Through Heartache & Pain

        I have many dreams for the future. I just wish the future was right now. Why do we have to work for all of our youth, then get to retire when we are old and decrepit and can't do much? I just have this itch to be outside, go explore and just be free...with no cares in the world and just live each day like it could be my last. I want to do more with my life than I am currently doing. I dream of making a difference in the world of finding the beauty in things again. But those dreams always seem so far away or so unachievable or unattainable, like I'm running out of time. That just makes me want it more, that's what pushes me to keep putting one foot in front of the other. Maybe someday soon I can leave this small town BS and Just hit the road, do some traveling, go see the world, take a gazillion photos, all with my co-pilots right along side me. Just thinking about it gives me piece. There's just so much beauty and so many things that I want to see and experie...

 Let me introduce myself, or as best as you can on paper. I came into this world in early spring of 1992. Like all babies I don't have any memories of those few years of life, maybe some superficial memories brought on by what others have told me life was like.  My mom was young when she had me about 17ish-18, and she had already had already given birth to my oldest brother, Damion when she was around 15. My dad on the other hand was 25. (I think everyone just kind of looked away when it came to the age gap.) From what my dad has told me in the past he was already married at the time when he met my mom. They happened to hook up during a parry that my dad was throwing at his house and my mom lied and said she was older than what she actually was. and what do you know? Nine months later my brother was welcomed into the world. I couldn't of imagined life would have been easy for her; having two kids under two before you were even 19. Babies having babies. I think with trying to s...